Personal report
Another self-portrait in another Windlight sunset, originally uploaded by Raul Crimson.
Surely now you know i like to write a post sometimes as a resume of what is happening in my Second Life, even sometimes they can be a bit confusing. That is one of those… 
I’m feeling OK, not so much time on last week (had things to do in RL) but the time i was on was fun to have time with some friends (specially a totally crazy evening with Keiko and Ilian), taking some pictures, and work in some “business” (new offers at the store, some custom work, …).
With Soldeus, i feel really OK, maybe sometimes we have small misunderstoods (different languages, he he he), but we enjoy each other, having time together when we both can and want, understanding we need our own space as creators and respecting each other. No partnership, no promises, just enjoy our time together being truthful with each other.
I’d like to talk a bit about something i saw lately in some dear friends: They feel bad because there is a difference between what they want to be, or what they think they are, and the perception the others have about them, or what the others expect them to be or act. I was talking with friends about it, and i will say here what i said them all: “Be truthful to yourself, to what you think, to what you want or need (always respecting the others, of course). If the others like it, perfect, if not, sorry, but they should build a bridge and go over it.” Sorry if i seem radical about this, is just i want my friends (and myself) to feel good, and to feel good you don’t have to care about what others think or this can make you really unhappy.
About creation, photography and all that….. some projects in mind, i’m building a new gallery, but the project is still a work in process, so i don’t want to post about it for the moment. Anyway, next post will be about one exhibition is on right now.
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I think most if not all of us get a little too worried at times about how we’re perceived by others. I’m guessing this might impact bloggers, photographers—pretty much anyone who puts their work and thoughts out for public scrutiny—more than someone not engaged in these activities. We want to think that the things we produce are valuable, so we focus on how others react (or fail to react). For some, the anxiety this produces is mild, but others can be consumed by it and constantly wonder what it will take to make their audience appreciate them. I think those who accept they are doing it for their own satisfaction first and foremost have a better chance at avoiding the self-esteem issues that all this can cause. Those who put themselves out there with popularity as their goal are likely setting themselves up for disappointment.
Hmm . . . I think I went off on a total tangent there. Um, like Raul said, just be true to yourself
You are a very wise man Raul
You know I agree with you on this point, it is how I want to live every day of my life. Lately though, my insecurities and neuroses have been kicking in, in both lives, and I have been ‘editing’ myself, to some extent, according to what other people want. I’ve finally admitted how much of a problem I have, and I’m working on it. Keep reminding me Raul? 
PS:Sorry to be serious first thing in the morning.
PPS:Chloe, I love it when you go off on a tangent
Chloe, not so off on a tangent. Most of the worries are about what you said. I’m worried sometimes about it too, but i try to repeat myself that sentence, to feel more relaxed, to don’t feel the preasure.
When you show part of yourself through creation (of any kind) you give something important and you expect it to be appreciated, but at the same time this is a bit dangerous, becuase you finally can focus all your attention in the reaction of others instead of in the creation process itself. Not only this, all that can affect you personally in a bad way, making you feel depressed, insecure, deeply sad. So your “tangent” fits a lot what i wanted to talk about here. And i think you are right.
Anyway i think this thought can be used for other sides of yourself, i think you can’t expect to be loved by everyone, becuase this is just impossible. The only rule is to respect others, but the only one you should expect to love you is yourself. So meanwhile you keep acting following your thoughts, respecting others, you should feel right with yourself. You should like yourself to be liked by others. Of course this is a simplification of an important thought, but i’m sure you know what i mean.
Phoenix, not so wise, becuase i feel insecure a lot of times also, but i try to remind me this when i feel bad. Chloe is so right when she says: “Those who put themselves out there with popularity as their goal are likely setting themselves up for disappointment.”
I presume my lifes (First and Second) are eternal “works in progress”, at least i expect them to be that. We are learning everyday, to feel better with ourselves, to feel better with others, … we are looking for the right balance. Sometimes is hard, sometimes is easy, but sharing some thoughts, like you both and me did here is a good way to learn.
I’d like also to say thanks, because sometimes is a bit hard to express yourself in a language you don’t know deeply and the expression of my thoughts can seem a bit confussing. You are doing the effort to understand me and this is something i will be thankful.
Maybe i’m too serious sometimes too, Phoenix.