Long time no blogging, well, one month… but anyway my blogging “rhythm” has been pretty slow in the last months. Well not only blogging, also taking pictures and editing them, or making anything inside Second Life (i’ve been doing stuff, but not making stuff).

Soooo… here it comes one of those personal blogposts about thoughts, feelings, etc… confessions on a virtual world.

In the last year everything started slowing down, don’t get me wrong, not sad about it, i just want to understand what happened, and sometimes the best way to understand is to try to explain. There are many possible reasons, first, i’m too self-demanding and often not happy with what i make. I took so many pictures and deleted them once edited, or wrote many blogposts or created many objects or builds and deleted them too only because i was not happy enough with them. When you have a period where you are not happy enough with most of the things you make you start to think that maybe you are good enough and after you deleted some number of things you wonder also if it worths it, the energy, passion and time invested. Then you just stop creating until you feel the need to do it again.

At the same time one feels sometimes like a slave of what one makes. You have to write blogposts, you have to take pictures, you have to do lots of other stuff and you have to live your life and meet friends and… and… and is not you have to meet your friends or live your life, is just you want to do it, but all together when you have a limited time becomes stressful because you feel tied, trapped, and at the same time you feel bad if you don’t do all you want to do… and i’m terrible organizing my time, he he he…

All this stress is because you want to please yourself… and at the same time please others too, but now i know i just have to please myself because is not possible to do it all at the same time for long. What i do and make in Second Life must not be a cage and that’s what changed exactly. All i want to do i’ll do it for myself, and i’m sure some others will like it… and some not, of course.

Oooof! I feel better now after saying all this! Thanks for listening-reading, finally it seems blog readers are the most patient listeners.